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Happy New Year

 It's New Year's Day, and I'm the only one in the house awake, because I'm the only one in the house who didn't stay up late celebrating. More on that in a moment.
2013 highlights...
I read 37 books. (Please note that my bookpost reviews contain spoilers.)
I went to Disneyland 4 times. With my best friend, and sometimes other of my favorite people as well. I rode the Flying Dumbo ride for the first time! (This is the ride that terrified me when I was four, and led directly to my passion for It's a Small World.)
I created five Disney pin boards for other collectors, in exchange for Disney pins. All the recipients were pleased with my creations, which makes me even happier than the pins I traded them for.  I also created three new Disney pin boards for myself, and refurbished one other.

I went to Victoria for a long weekend with Torrey and Tony, and had high tea at the Empress Hotel. Delicious!
I spent two weeks in Europe with my husband Fishy. I saw many things I'd never seen before, and many things I'd always wanted to see. I went to the Louvre and spend as much time as I wanted there, instead of being bossed by a tour guide. I went to a Salvador Dali museum, and got to see the originals of his Alice in Wonderland paintings. I got to sit in a French cafe, sipping wine and eating a delicious salad, gazing up at Chartres Cathedral lit up by the sunset. I went to Windsor Castle and got to see Queen Mary's doll's house. I rode a train through the Chunnel and had wifi the entire time. I got to ride several other trains too (I can't even tell you how excited I was about all the trains!) I roamed the British Museum, gazing at the treasures of what might have been my ancestors, and stood with one foot on either side of the Prime Meridian. I got to go to an actual English racecourse and see actual English horse races and everything was exactly like the Dick Francis novels!! I got to do many more exciting and wonderful things, which I still plan to detail in a trip-diary sort of post someday, and I got to do them all with my wonderful, amazing Fishy. Seventeen years together (is it really?) and we still fill one another with joy.
I worked on our new album. (Yes, really.) Doing anything musical has been hard during the last three years since Mom died, and also during the three years before that when she was seriously declining. Every song and every recording session and every concert has required me to fight through thick choking waves of triggers and emotions to get to it. The fight is worth it; it's what I want and choose to do, and every fight leaves me stronger and the waves a little more dissolved. There's no manual for how long it takes to get through something like this; you just do it. So the fact that I actually chose to get my butt in the studio and work has been really big.
I kept focusing on mental health issues.To borrow a phrase from The West Wing, getting help has helped.
I got a new phone!!! That actually works in all the ways it's supposed to!!!! I'm not going to list all my new material possessions, but Fishy got me a Nexus 5 for early Christmas when I asked for it after my last couple of phones tempted me to throw them against the wall, and OH I LOVE IT SO MUCH I ACTUALLY SOMETIMES HUG IT. It's beautiful and smart and IT WORKS. I think it's been a month or two now and I'm still so excited about it I had to add it to this list.
2013 has also seemed to be the year when the migraines have increased in frequency, which leads to this past New Year's Eve, when for the second time in a row I had to stay home from my planned partygoing while my head threatened to explode. This particular migraine woke me up around 2am on Sunday night, prevented me from getting any more sleep that night, and continued on until this morning. At least the bosses let me go home early yesterday. That was a plus. I can feel that I'm now on the tail-off period, where the headache is still there, but more as a dull ache than a full-on migraine. I've also had more nausea with them lately than I ever used to. This increase is possibly hormonal. I'm going to talk to my doctor. (This means I don't need any unasked-for advice. Thanks though.)
This time, with the help of a friend, I tried out a recently-legalized pain remedy to see if it would help. It didn't, but there are a number of possible reasons why (including the vaporizer batteries both being almost dead) and more experimentation is probably needed. (That's not a joke about recreation; there are actually not enough data points here yet, and a number of variable factors, and I'm certain to have more migraines in the future.) Jen had some useful suggestions. Tony opted to stay home to snuggle me and keep me company. Fishy opted to come back later and snuggle me in my sleep. 
I kept thinking all evening about that superstition where the way you spend New Year's Eve is a sign for the way your new year will be. Well that sucks, I thought. So this means I'll spend the new year intermittently in excruciating pain, bailing out on promises to friends, lying around my house being boring and possibly taking drugs that don't do anything. Great.
On the other hand, it's all about how you look at it. I choose to say that I'll spend the new year in my beautiful house that I love, safe and warm and well-fed, after working at a job that I like for bosses that I like. I'll spend it helped by friends and cared for by loved ones. And I'll spend it trying new things.
Here's to the new year. May it bring us all good things, and may we be able to recognize them when they arrive.
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( what 6 dormice said — feed your head )
Jan. 2nd, 2014 12:33 am (UTC)
lying around my house being boring and possibly taking drugs that don't do anything

Sound like how I spent last year. It's actually not so bad.
Jan. 2nd, 2014 01:16 am (UTC)
I like your spin on the superstition. I will spend my new year much the same relaxing at home with the husband and the cats and feeling blessed for the quiet moments as much as the busy ones.
Jan. 2nd, 2014 04:50 am (UTC)
One of my new year's things every year is to write more. So, here's something that popped into my mind reading your journal, in hopes that your friends will refrain from medical advice and your doctors will actually be helpful.

May all your friends be kind and gracious,
And all your drugs be efficacious.

That's all.

Jan. 2nd, 2014 05:30 am (UTC)
I hope your year is wonderful and you find ever-better ways to heal. And I'm glad you're still making music, both for your sake and the music's.

By the way, just to irrelevantly fanboy for a moment -- I have this image in my head of Anna from Frozen singing "Burn It Down" to a group of kids around a campfire at night to inspire them, with Elsa sitting by and listening as well. When Anna gets to the third verse, she sings it pretty much directly to Elsa, their faces retelling their story as she does.

So... yeah. However much more there may be, thanks for the music we already have.
Jan. 2nd, 2014 09:58 pm (UTC)
Happy New Year, vixy! May it bring you good things. <3
Jan. 12th, 2014 09:50 am (UTC)
It was so good to see you tonight, and Happy New Year to you too, fox sister.

Would you be up for hanging out sometime?
( what 6 dormice said — feed your head )


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